GOD IS AMAZING

Last night I was having a real pity party. I felt so lonely. I even felt God abandoned me. I always have that fear that if I get too close to Him, he would leave me when He got tired of me like others (mere humans) have done.

This morning my daughter asked me some questions about where heaven and earth would be when Jesus sets up His Kingdom for eternity. I looked up all the scriptures about heaven so I was sure to give her the right answers. She needed that to talk to a Jehovah Witness about it.

I found a site "ask me questions" or something like that and it listed different topics. That kept me busy all morning. Then I had another fight with my 'puter. It got me over my pity party and made me look at what my real problems were-----nothing.

I faced myself like looking in a mirror and typed my biggest concerns that I never told anyone about. As I wrote I had to make up my mind that I had to overcome those hangups and quick.

I typed up Phil. 4:4-9 and taped it on the side of my computer so I could look at it when I started to get negative thoughts. I thought I was pretty much on top of it. Unforgotten things kept popping up. Only way I could use God's two edged sword to have them cut to the ground.

Got my puter fixed and went for a walk. Took a nap. I went to my email and got a notice that there was a comment on a testimony I wrote long time ago on Testimonies Share. It was from a Pastor from Pakistan. I asked for prayer for him and his ministry. He thought I was a pastor. He asked me to help spread the gospel with him.

On his web site, it showed some of his ministries and his goal for his people like schools and different charities to help the hurting and hungry ones; medical and other needs. Many people are getting saved in this Islamic country.

Then to confirm it, another testimony caught my eye. It was from a man (Pray for him, too) also from Pakistan. That was no co-incident. God doesn't play with them. Just with His own planned activities.

He challenged some Christians to burn the Quar'am while he burned the Bible. The book which would burn would be false. The one that would not burn has the truth in it. The christians refused. The Islamic young man tried to burn both..

His book burned right up. When he tried to burn the Bible it struck his chest and he fell to the ground. He said there was smoke all around his body. He was burning but from spiritual fire!

Then he had a vision of Jesus and Mary Magdalene near the stone on the grave. Sudenly he saw a man wrapped in light on his side. "He placed his hand on my head and said to me "You are my son and from now on you will preach the Gospel in your nation. Go! Your Lord is with you."

When he woke up he went to a church close to his home and told the Father (or preacher) about what happened. He accepted Jesus Christ as his savior. He went to many different churches. He and his wife are involved in the work of the Lord. They face many hardships and he feels like Paul suffering for the Glory of his Savior. The Holy Spirit encourages them every day.

This made me feel so childish. My petty concerns for me are ridiculous and selfish. God let me see what a protected life I had and anything I faced seem like nothing. Would I be able to stand up to real persecution. I have to get tougher. I have to also realize I am never alone and God never stops loving me even if I leave the path once in awhile or I don't see HIm. I have to accept His love on faith.

I was acting just like a child who when its mother leaves him, he runs after her and cries "Mommy, Mommy, don't go away." When she does, he feels deserted.

I Corinthians 13:11 "When I was a child----I thought like a child but when I became a (75 year old man (woman) I put away childish things."

God said it is time to grow up. I have lost so much time feeling sorry for me. How many others who may have gone through life at the same pity party! Again God is using this to help others NOT waste their time.

God is so awesome as to how He brings us to our senses. Two people from Pakistan and they probably didn't even know the other was even on the same site! It excites me what God is doing.
Preparing people to go home with him after the battle is over.

I like the song "My God is an Awesome God".

Ecclesiastes 3:1
To everything there is a season and a time to every purpose under the sun."