well....i had the surgery on my back/spine and something went wrong....nobody knows what yet
it might have been a bad reaction to the anethesia or something with my spine, who knows....ok so right after the surgery and partly during it all i remember is laying there screaming in excruciating pain....i was yelling and screaming for someone to help me, but nobody heard me....it was the most awful feeling i believe i have ever had in my life....thats all i remember from then on, so heres what people have told me....
they said for the first 2 days after the surgery i didnt talk at all or respond to anyone....just layed there staring....
3rd day they said i talked some but would only say "im fine, im fine"....they said i didnt realise i had even had surgery and i was confused and upset
after 6 days of that they said i started to respond more and i was even back to chatting some but nothing i said or typed made much sence and i wouldnt really talk, they said my mind was like that of a young child, i would fight when it was time for my medications, try to take the iv out and if they tried to get me to walk or stand i would scream in pain.
i have been at my grandparents house since 3 days after the surgery, my aunt who is a nurse stops by a couple times a day to take care of me and her oldest girl stayed with me most of the time
i still cant walk or even stand without a lot of pain, but i wont give up....i refuse to!
so, u all are probably wondering what happened with my mind/memory....well....i went to church yesterday morning and it was the kind of church where ppl lay there hands on people and pray for them....so they did that to me and my mind just like....opened up or something
it was so strange....i felt peace in my mind and i started to come back to reality PTL....but when i "woke up" i felt as though i had just come out of surgery...like i was asleep and this whole past 9 days was a dream....after ppl started telling me how i had acted the past week i felt so stupid and embarresed....even though i know it was not my fault....i didnt mean to act like that and didnt even realise i was doing it!....talk about a weird feeling, lol. so, what now u may wonder? well, so do i lol. Ill started therepy yesterday....and pray that i dont kick someone....not that i would ever do that on purpose *innocent smile*. Ill get x-rays done to see how my back is holding up or whatever....and well, i guess thats it, its time to move on and start trying to get up and around again....
i sure hope ya'll havent forgotten about me....like that could ever happen lol, *grin*. i cant wait to get back on ablazenet and start chatting with everyone again!